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Currently Listening All Star Smash Hits By Smash Mouth see related

well let's see....

                           my aunt had her baby....he is beautiful.
 Zachariah Matthew is his name. and haley loves him!
it was something we were all kinda worried about. she
isnt' use to sharing anything...including attention. but it
will all come with time. it amazes me how much of a
little person she has become. she is so smart. so independent.
she already knows how to get her way or to get anything she
wants. i just wish i was there to see her more. i miss her. and
then with Zachariah...well i will just miss him growing up all
together. but my main concern is that they both grow up
and become believers in Christ. Because even though i
can't spend time with them now....eternity seems like a
fair enough time to make up for it.  i would put pictures
on here of him...but like a air head i deleted the pictures
off my camera without looking to see if i downloaded
them yet...so just take my word for it...he's beautiful!

            more later...

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but You put me in the mood to dance<3

well today i am in a very festive mood...so i thought i'd jazz up the text a bit! i'm digging it. this morning's message was pretty awesome. it made me feel all warm and fuzzy and i love that feeling. we were in John 10..and we were talking about the Shepherd roles. it was so cool because i knew that the sheep know his voice...and right now in my life it is so important for me to hear God's voice but the cool part is that is says in verse 5 that the sheep"will not follow a stranger." it was such a relief to know..even though God is comparing me to a stupid animal that would follow off a cliff that He will not let me follow a strangers voice....I belong to Him! : )

today all together was a sweet day! after church my family and i went to kfc and it's been such a long time since we've eaten there....actually the last time i ate there it was after seeing my grandpa after he had a heartattack that should have killed him and my dad got a call from his dad to tell us that my grandma had breast cancer....yeah that was the last time i ate there.so maybe not the happiest place to eat....but yeah it was nice. then i came home and called isaac and we went for sno-cones then went to the fountain and stuck our feet in. i am so going to swim in it one day. Then he dropped me off i went to church and then went to O'Charleys with some of the youth and then isaac and i watch the orangish moon set high in the black sky...it was really awesome. then i took isaac home and i am now at the point where i have nothing to say!

           " i use to think that home was in the arms of the man God created for me but i am starting to realized that home is in the arms of God"

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You're my all when all is gone

WOW it's been forever since i've updated this thing....so much has happened too! so instead of boring everyone with the past million weeks we'll start with monday

monday: woke up and got ready to go hang out with alli. we went and grabbed lunch at shade's (yum) and then went to see the devil wears prada. i liked it okay. i had alot of fun with alli....aww...i love her! then isaac took me to a picnic in the pouring rain for our 11 months mark. it we really neat. it's the first time anyone has planned something like that for me...and even though the script called for sun...we faked it.

   thats us after ruuning in a down pour
then i begged him to take me to see red white & boom because i have never been and i love fireworks! so he did. we went two hours before to berliner park and it was pretty crowded. and we still got a pretty nice spot...but it was so borning waiting so we took silly pictures and fought for our lives....yes thats right. there were these drunk people behind us setting off fireworks and one went zooming passed our heads and landed in front of us...oh well.

           our waiting pictures...

tuesday: i got up early and showered and we left for norwalk. (YAY) we got there and went to a parade and we and cassy got candy threw at us and sometimes pelted. then andrew and cliff came to where we were sitting and then after the parade...me,cassy,cliff,and ben walked back to cassy's for a cook out. it was yummy....then cliff and andrew left and cassy and i had a nice and needed heart to heart. it made me realize how much i miss her....i mean i knew it before but i really miss her bad. and she understood so much and i got her too...it was just nice to talk to her. then we did a mini phot shoot because we are cool like that...then me,cassy,her mom,my mom, kimmy,and ben played spoons,bs,and guestures. it was sweet!

then we talked my dad into staying for fireworks and they were so awesome. i liked them better than red white &boom...but don't tell isaac. cassy taught me how to play skip-bo and i love that game now!! we got eaten alive by bugs...but it was sweet still. then i had to leave (poop) but i am planning on going back soon! it was so much fun!

           firework faces

wednesday: nothing really went down....my family and i went to lunch and then to church...i applied for walgreens and lifeway...i really want to work at lifeway though so i can still be plugged in at church...but whatever God wants!

thursday: not much here either....i did a horrible job at my bible study...(sorry God) and then isaac took me to the park but it was cold so we came home and fell asleep woke up at 10:45 and got ready to go to the midnight showing of pirates!! with alli....got home about 3:30 and crawled straight into bed.

and today is friday....pray that lifeway calls me!!!

                     You are good and Your love is everlasting

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...my mind is soaked with words*

i've done it again.
i let things get piled up and now i am ready to explode.
i have so many emotions. so..so..so many.
i don't know why i do that...this. but i feel like they are my personal thoughts.
my personal feelings....why trouble someone with them.
and to let someone know those things about me is embarassing
and it's scary...it's like giving someone a key to your thoughts.
and once you tell them you can't "untell" them.
           ...let's get started...

i went to see my class graduate from ironton. it so was long and hot.
i thought i would be an emotional trainwreck and inside....
                                         i was.
my mind was racing all weekend.
besides the intense heat of it...i was dying inside just to fall apart.
but i have never felt like such an inconvenace than i did then
i felt like everyone was bothered by my presence.
            i'll never go back

i saw him on several occassions
but never once excahnged words
nor eye contact.
i must be invisible these days to him
i will admitt to the hurt
i am so hurt
everything...for nothing
i'm invisible

if all was lost something was discovered
one frayed end mended and tied
its funny how a hug could solve almost a year of silence
i feel better about it all....i do
i really think i do

a horrible discovery about myself
i'm an awful person
i walk away from things when they get bad
relationships iwth friends and more
if it hits a bump...i leave
all my loose ends are my fault

isaac doesn't let me walk away

i over romanticize
i want songs written about me
i want to be in a live changing movie
i want to be able to express myself with fear
i want to write songs and sing them at the top of my lungs
i want to grow up and mature
and i don't want to push anybody else away. 
           

        i want to run